www.topherkris.com

This one’s a beaut. It ends in someone making me watch them cry over skype and begging me to come down. It also contains ALL sorts of me freaking the fuck out because well… a move is a pretty big deal for a goddamn hermit. It’s basically a continuation of “You do realize that I’m spending a lot of money and for the love of fuck, tell me that you want me there. I’m being a little bitch because I’m currently giving up everything to be with you”

There was a lot of this around the end of July because I was realizing how much stuff that I’d be giving away. The apartment I was losing. It was basically set. Blargh.

Convo after the jump.

her@gmail.com: yup yup. so what you get up to?

me: same old

her@gmail.com: putering?

hehe

me: yup

her@gmail.com: hows the heat?

10:34 PM

me: not too bad yet

her@gmail.com: good good

dont want you overheating

me: yah

it’s gross

the forecast

her@gmail.com: yea

me: we’ll see

her@gmail.com: its supposed to get into the loq 100s here with the humidex

ugggghhhhhhh

me: yah

gross

her@gmail.com: ick ick

altho my office has some a/c so thats good at least

but i wont be there when it’s gonna be the wrost out

over the weekend and friday

blaaahhhh

me: what are you upto this weekend

or later week

after work

her@gmail.com: well, tomorrow night i going out since XXXX is in town

so he, me and XXXXXX and maybe XXXXX’s friend that i really like are gonna go out

annnnd then nada

buy a tv i think, and get a new phone

i think my great aunt is coming either sat or sun to see my apartment and to go to lunch, but that’s it – low key

me: the girl you think he should bang?

her@gmail.com: yea

me: nice.

her@gmail.com: she is very sweet and funny

and me and XXXX and XXXX think they should hook up

me: yah

her@gmail.com: we see – could happen!

me: nice.

you guys love going out

you such a little party animal

her@gmail.com: ahaha baby

i not wild

it’s more bar

me: when does your job end again?

her@gmail.com: than party

mid sept

although i might stay on thru the week of the 19th

will depend on his workload

me: ah

and then what?

10:44 PM

her@gmail.com: theeennnn we see

i think stay here at least thru the fall – try and find something

me: and when did you decide on that?

her@gmail.com: when are you thinking of coming down?

i havent really thought about it – been taking it week by week and settling in, but i am liking it here

me: yah

lame

her@gmail.com: you’ll see what i mean when you come visit

what do you want for your bday btw??

me: i dunno

her@gmail.com: you want me to save the presents until you come down here? or ship something?

(you’ll get something on your bday though – heheh)

me: how?

her@gmail.com: internetz

me: yah

i’m still not sure if i’ll come down

her@gmail.com: whaa? i thought it was kinda set

me: Well, everything’s in place

i just have to decide.

her@gmail.com: okay then

what is holding you back?

me: well the fact that you like boston more than you like me sorta pisses me off

her@gmail.com: that’s no true

it’s not you vs. boston

me: yes it is

her@gmail.com: just come down baby

me: i just don’t know if i wanna spend that much money

her@gmail.com: you dont need health insurance – my uncle knows all about ailments if that makes a difference. i think you’ll be okay without it

(he’s in pediactrics – the go to guy about illnesses and rashes)

and we wont be doing anything xtremeeee

me: either way

it’ll be costly

her@gmail.com: yea, but you won’t have rent

it’s workable

and there is the bus

which isnt bad is it?

me: oh, so i can live there for free?

her@gmail.com: or maybe a porter seat sale

well, i would want something, but i’d be fine with 450/475

me: haha

her@gmail.com:

me: you just said i wont have rent

her@gmail.com: i meant your place

has someone taken it?

me: yah

her@gmail.com: that was quick

XXXXX didnt take it for her bf? i remeber you saying they felt cramped

me: nope

someone grabbed it

her@gmail.com: ahh

well, it is a good little place really

and you painted it all nice

me: yah

she raised the rent i think

her@gmail.com: ahh did she??

to XXX?

i dunno

me: XXX

her@gmail.com: she kinda acts as a super – she must get some off for that

me: yah

her@gmail.com: niiiice

does she hav a real kitchen?

me: nope

her@gmail.com: ahh kk

one downside

but still

me: i just dont understand why you like boston so much

her@gmail.com: good deal

its a great city baby, and its near my family and cady house – there are a lot of reasons.

you’ll see

me: those are crap reason

you only go to cady house with your mom anyways

her@gmail.com: no their not

now i can go whenever

i mean, i was able to go see the new family in connecticut this past weekend b/c i am so close

and i could see my dad for fathers day b/c i am so close

me: yah.

her@gmail.com: it makes a difference

me: yet you’re far away from your mom and me

her@gmail.com: i know, and i dont like that at all

me: yah

but i guess the other stuff is better

when do the people you met at tufts leave?

her@gmail.com: i dont know yet

XXXXX might stay thru the fall

and XXXXXX is thinking of actualy moving here and going to the language school here

most of them want to try and get into the full tufts program

me: are you going to apply to it?

her@gmail.com: maybe down the line but it’ll take me a few years – you need a second language and experience in the field, and i dont have either

me: wait

her@gmail.com: well, in a related field – they want work experience

me: you didn’t know this when you applied?

her@gmail.com: i knew about the language, but not about the work experience

they dont tell you that

me: ugh

her@gmail.com: i guess a lot of grad programs are like that

it’s rare to go to a top grad school right out of undergrad, unless it’s law or med

me: yah

her@gmail.com: did you know that if you take too much time off (like 2 years or so) between premed and medical school you have to redo the premed or do a ton of refresher courses that dont really count for anything – crazy

me: lovely

her@gmail.com: ohhh and MIT business here has a “course” – 7,500 grand for 5 days, or 3,000 for 3 days

insane

me: these are things i don’t care about

her@gmail.com: okay

me: i just don’t know why you think this is easiy

or how you picture shit working out

her@gmail.com: nighty night bub

miss you – hope it’s not too hot tonight

me: what?

her@gmail.com: i’m gonna hit the sack

me: oh

did you not get my message?

whatever

doesn’t matter

her@gmail.com: no – it signed me out breifly

and then you were offline for a second there

me: yah

her@gmail.com: it’s gone all weird

me: yup

it detects selfishness

and reacts accordingly

her@gmail.com: thanks.

anyway

on that note

night

me: yup.

i’m done with you

pz.

her@gmail.com: oh come on

we can talk about this over skype or something

me: no.

her@gmail.com: not over gmail